Meaning

I'm pretty dreary at this point. But I think this is apropos:

Schläft ein Lied in allen Dingen
Die da träumem fort und fort
Und die Welt hebt an zu singen
Triffst du nur das Zauberwort. (Eichendorff, 1835)

I really think you can find meaning in even the things that seem the most tedious and prosaic. For instance, this morning - there really IS a reward in a disgustingly procrastinative all nighter. Besides finishing the essay, Magdalen Street Sainsbury's - the taste of two (one of which will be regretted) all butter croissants that are STILL WARM, and enjoying them at a time when you'd otherwise still be in bed. And the feeling when you finally finish the essay. The next song that comes on your computer just sounds better. The next cigarette tastes just a little bit sweeter, and the feeling of climbing into bed for the rest of the day. I think I work best when on all nighters. Besides the incentive from the fact that I've left an essay I had two weeks to do, till 3 am the day it's due, isn't there something to be said for what you learn about how you use time when you really need to? That probably sounds like period, cause I need to go sleep like RIGHT NOW (11 am) but at least I'll remember enjoying the experience.